The bad news is that after a lot of dr. visits and tests it's determined that she is in kidney failure. Her kidneys are only functioning at 21% of what they should be. What does this mean?
Well, I don't know. She says she feels good and the kidney specialist was suprised by this. He said she will eventually need dialysis several times a week. He said she could be fine for a few years or it could be months. To be with her and talk with her, it's hard for me to accept this. She seems healthier than she has since my dad died. This is stirring up all kinds of emotions similiar to when my dad became ill with liver failure. They said we had 5 years with him and it ended up being only 1. And until the day he died, I thought maybe it was all a mistake and he would get better.
I think it's human nature to hope for the best. I asked her if she was scared and she said that no she isn't. She feels good and will just keep going on like nothing is wrong until she can't and if it is her time to go she is ok with that too because she can't wait to be with my dad again. So I will keep hoping for the best. Miracles do happen. She may get better or stay feeling good for a long time. She may not either. I know her Heavenly Father has a plan for her and whatever he decides will be the best. I will just pray hard to Him and hope.
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Julie!!! Oh my honey,I may not understand completely what you are going through right now, but I can relate. I too lost a father and that is very very very hard. My mom and my brother do not have the best of health either, So i know the long nights of worry,tears, and all the prayers that are said on their behalf. Its def is not easy.
From my experience I have learned that the Lord truly loves us and knows what is best for ALL of us. Meaning YOU and your Mother.
With that love, I think he does extend his mercy. Miracles happen every single day, and it is Gods will. He wants us to be happy. NEVER EVER give up hope. Always remember God hand in all things. All things are possible. YOu will be in my prayers.
So sorry Julie! Prayers are with her. Miracles DO happen we have seen them with our family the last few months. Keep your head up and enjoy every moment. (((HUGS)))
Your mom is adorable! I'm so sorry to hear this. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
You know that I know what you are going through. Somehow we will get through this together. I hope too that your Mom will be fine.
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