Death and Birth

Adam's Grandpa Duane died tonight. He has been sick for a very long time so it wasn't a huge surprise, but it's never a pleasant thing to work through and I feel for Adam and his family. I am sure they are having lots of extra prayers said for them right now and I hope it helps them get through the coming days. I am also crossing my fingers that the baby and the funeral do not come on the same day so Adam can make it to both.
On a happier note, we went to the Utah Flash basketball game last night. It was so much fun. It ended up being a really close game and went into overtime. Mick made a "Go Utah Flash" sign and he held it up the entire 3 hour game. He was so into it and had such a good time. I can't wait to take him to a Jazz game now.

Bookkeeping (a really boring post)

No baby yet! No sign of a baby even. Am I really pregnant or maybe I just ate too much lately?
Mick's eye appointment went really well. His patch has improved his vision in his left eye dramatically. He still has to wear it for several more months but if things keep progressing this well he will be able to avoid the dreaded surgery again. That was a load off my mind to hear.
I just had an online remote access Quickbooks training with an accountant's office to get me back up to speed on how to do Adam's bookkeeping. I have done it for 10 years but never had to mess with the employee, accounts receivable, and job costing side. I feel much better about things now. Come to find out that I wasn't doing too bad of a job before and I understood everything they showed me so hopefully I can do this without being frustrated with my lack of knowledge. I don't work outside of the home, but this makes me feel like I am contributing to the business. We found out it would cost around $500/month to have an accountant's office do this so I am worth something right? I said something to Adam about him paying me that $500 to which he quickly pointed out that I get all his money anyways, which is true. haha. Thank you Adam!
I am going to the Dr. again this afternoon. I had really hoped I wouldn't need to make this appointment but here I am again. Hopefully (fingers crossed) this is the last time I see the Dr. before I see him in the hospital.

What is on my mind today.........

I had a rotten night of sleep last night. Adam was up most of it working and I never sleep very deep when he isn't by me. I also had lots of wierd dreams. When the alarm went off, I did NOT want to get up but made myself knowing that later I would be glad I did. I got to the gym and worked out by an awesome lady and we chatted the whole hour so it went by fast. I was glad because I was not feeling the motivation this morning to do it on my own.
Not much going on today. We are getting snow again and I really hate it. I am thinking I will make some freezer meals today so that I have something easy on hand. Later, I am taking Mick to the eye specialist to see if him wearing the patch has helped at all this last 6 weeks. I so hope and pray that he doesn't have to have that surgery again. It wasn't fun and I don't want to see him go through that again if we can help it.
Wish him luck!

Clark Planetarium and very sore feet

Last Saturday on the spur of the moment, we decided to head up to SLC and take the kids to the Planetarium. Lucky for us, Jarod and Jamie had an afternoon free and went with us. It was nice to get out and see something different. I know the kids loved it, Mick in particular. After we did that for a couple of hours, we walked around the Gateway and did a little shopping. Oh, the cute clothes everywhere were calling my name! I cannot wait to wear normal clothes again. I need to start saving up for a huge clothes shopping extravaganza in a couple months! And I think I might have a bonfire and burn these maternity clothes that I have worn over and over and over. Haha! It was a super fun day, but by the end of the day, my feet hurt so so bad. My hubbie was a sweetheart and gave me a good foot rub though.

The three cousins on the moon

Mick telling us the weather forecast

Victoria and Lilli on Mars. Lilli was so cute. She sat on that rock saying "Cheese" for a long time. She loved having her picture taken.

Lilli and I having a kodak moment. She was adamant that I sit down and say "cheese" too.
(These pictures are very bad quality because we forgot to take a camera and had to use the cell phone camera.)

Monkey hear, monkey say

Adam and I went to my OB appointment this morning. Got told that nothing had changed since last week. I felt like crying with frustration, but got over it. I had my hair colored and cut and styled and felt like a new woman.
Tonight, right now, I am listening to my family wrestle in the other room. They are so happy and content and it's good.
I had been hinting all night about how good a Bajio burrito was sounding. Adam had his nose stuck in a book and didn't pay me any attention. Obviously Tori got tired of hearing it because she piped up with, "Well good hell lady, let's go get you some."

Live in the moment.....

I had read or heard this a while ago and just found it on someone else's blog and I wanted to post it so that I can remember it from time to time. I missed so much of Tori's first year. I was physically present, but mentally and emotionally I was a wreck and I have forgotten almost all of it. It's something that I regret almost daily. My husband is quick to remind me that it wasn't my fault, that I couldn't help the PPD that I had, but I still feel so bad that I cannot recall much of her first year of life.
I feel so blessed to be able to do this newborn thing again, like it's a second chance for me to get it right. I want to cherish every little moment I get to spend cuddling and taking care of Kade. I know that realistically I probably won't love every single minute of it (like lack of sleep) but I hope that I remember this quote and do a much better job this time.
Anna Quindlen:
The biggest mistake I made [as a parent] is the one that most of us make. … I did not live in the moment enough. This is particularly clear now that the moment is gone, captured only in photographs. There is one picture of [my three children] sitting in the grass on a quilt in the shadow of the swing set on a summer day, ages six, four, and one. And I wish I could remember what we ate, and what we talked about, and how they sounded, and how they looked when they slept that night. I wish I had not been in such a hurry to get on to the next thing: dinner, bath, book, bed. I wish I had treasured the doing a little more and the getting it done a little less.

READY

WAITING............

Baby Shower!!

My most awesome friend, Lily, threw me a baby shower. She went so far out of her way to make it nice. And so many friends and neighbors came and supported me. Even my BFF, Robyn, came clear from Vernal to suprise me and be there. Thanks to all. I appreciate it so much. You will never know how much.

Today

I am 2 weeks from my due date now. I will spend a day full of energy (like yesterday) and get lots done and feel pretty normal and then the next day I feel like I have been hit by a truck in the night. I don't know if I overdo it on the good days and that makes me so tired the next or what, but oh I cannot wait to feel good again.
I had a great day yesterday. I went the gym, worked out fairly hard, made a new friend while I was at it, came home, picked up the house, babysat for a friend (but it was a super easy baby so that wasn't hard), did my VTing, cooked dinner ahead of time, etc, etc.
It's noon today and I have so far: slept in while Adam got the kids up and fed and Mick to school, got showered, made my way to the couch, read a book to Tori, had her read a book to me (that I fell asleep during,) ate some candy, made Tori spaghetti-os, and checked my email. Tori goes to preschool here in a half hour and I will probably go back to bed while she is gone. I feel kinda sick to my stomach. (Could it be because all I've eaten is chocolate so far?)
I don't know why I am so yucky feeling this morning. I know that once I have the baby, I will be tired and he will be lots of work, but at least physically after a few weeks I will be up to doing it because I hate feeling like this. I want to have this baby and get my body back to myself and feeling good again.
But I did enjoy snuggling with Tori on the couch. I felt so hot and she stuck her cold little toes and hands on me and they felt so good. She kissed my forehead and whispered little things to me and I am glad that I was slowed down enough to experience that this morning.
Later, I have gymnastics and basketball to be to so I had better get myself vamped up for that. I think Adam will be home in time for dinner tonight and that is a treat to look forward to.

Journaling

So my posts are about to get more personal and boring to everyone else. I have decided I won't be scrapbooking anymore because it feels like a job I am always behind in and stresses me out and I have been horrible about writing in my journal often enough. I am going to try to start using the blog more as my daily journal instead so I don't forget all the little daily things that happen to us. I hope that I can preserve some of my dearest memories better this way.

Let's Hear It for V-Day!

I love having kids!!!
Adam and I got up early and decorated their doorways with hearts and wrapped them a little present. Then we woke them up. I love to wake up the kids in the mornings. I can go into Mick's room and open the blinds and curtains and pull all of his covers off him and tell him to get up and without opening his eyes he will start to smile. Every morning.
Every morning I will tiptoe carefully into Victoria's room and quietly open her blinds and pat her face and nicely ask her to wake up and she will grump and moan and frown and pull her blankets over her head. Every morning.
I can always guarantee that Mick will wake up with a smile and Tori with a moan but I love it and it reflects their personalities.
Anyways, back to Valentine's. Then Adam made breakfast for them. Heart pancakes and scrambled eggs. Then they opened their gift from us. After that, Mick brought out some perfume and that HUGE flower for Tori and I. Unbeknownst to us, the boys had been shopping for us the day before at the mall. I love to be loved by my family and it was such a fun day!

Valentine's Day

Mick's school party. I got to man a craft station during it. It was good to put faces with kids' names. Don't get me wrong, there is a lot of cute kids out there, but it made me appreciate the son I have. He is awesome and I am so so so glad he is mine.